Go back to the start 🔄

December means... It's time for Spotify Wrapped! And, of course, I didn't miss out on the fun too! I think the moment Spotify released it, everybody instantly started to upload their 2021 Wrapped on their IG stories or Twitter or perhaps... Facebook too (?) 😅 I personally think this is one of Spotify's ways to win our hearts. They just KNOW that everyone loves it when their actions are being acknowledged. C'mon who doesn't like it when people remember even the tiniest detail about them? On a side note tho; I heard that Spotify didn't give enough credit to the person behind the idea who was just an intern there at that time when she proposed the idea to the team 👀 Let's hope justice prevails for her, shall we? Because honestly, it sucks when this happens, especially seeing how it's become a hit now. Anyway, now that we're at it, I wanna show you guys the song that Spotify suggested to be the opening theme song for my movie (in which I am the main character in it, DUHHH), and it is..... *insert drum roll sound (with cymbal sound at the end)* 

Kembali Ke Awal by Glenn Fredly 💚 (RIP)

No words can describe how I feel so much for this song- everything was beautifully written by him. Simply put, it's a masterpiece despite its simplicity. Nobody asks for a review (bcs there's nothing for you to read in between the lines pun for the song bcs it's soo straightforward) BUT HEY, I still wanna lay my thoughts here. so... here are my takeaway =>

So, kembali ke awal by Glenn Fredly is such a poignant song. It’s about putting hope in the same place that you have once lost it (pretty ironic and absurd isn't it?) The bottom line is, it's about starting over. It’s about giving another chance and trying the best to make it worth it because giving chances is like gambling- u never know the outcome. u never know if they wld screw the chances, or wld it be worth it. the song emphasizes on providing reasons for us to hold on to something/ someone. yes. reasons. you do realize that reasons are what makes us hold on to something/ someone so dearly. we never truly see a person objectively (unless it's the first time meeting them BUT STILL, you would take their appearances into account too right? nah, don't lie to me, I know it all too well 😉), it's always subjective and very often, there is an invisible bag of 'reasons' that they carry along with them: reasons that make us choose to stay (or not) with them no matter the circumstances. 

I believe that not everyone wld truly appreciate chances. and I 100% believe that there are chances-abusers out there 😵 hence, someone once told me that chances shld not be given, but shld be earned. I’m a sucker for second chances- or even tons of them. however, along the way, I also realized that I’ve given too much to some people to the point where it became detrimental. but did I regret giving them tons of chances? nope. because at least I know that I’ve played all of my cards, and I’m certain of walking away too. at least I know that I’ve tried my best, and some things just meant to end. now, putting hope in the same person that once has hurt us is never easy. . some might find that u’re cruel for not giving out chances, some might label u as stupid for giving out too many chances. there’s no right or wrong in this (because we are emotionally driven). However, imo, do what makes u feel better. like how my friend likes to say; do the things that make u sleep better at night. not everybody has the same way of thinking as u and we never actually truly know what lies in one’s heart. u see, when it comes to the person that we once loved or once shared good memories with, u can rarely say no to giving out chances to them. we’re humans after all, how can we be objective about everything? so don't mock someone else for doing this or that. u never know until u walk in their shoes.

whenever u receive chances from someone, always remember that hope comes along with it. hope is something fragile and shld never be abused. this is why we shld make the chances we’ve received worth it. the cruelest thing to do to a person is to crush their hopes. to see a hopeful person collapse, wld be one of the ugliest sights for us to look at. so, if u think that chances aren’t serious just bcs they’re easily given to u, then think again. Sebelum nasi menjadi bubur, appreciate them, prove to them that u’re worth the chances that are given, and provide more reasons for them to hold on to. 

Lbnl, I wld like to highlight this one line from the song that goes: “berjarak dengan waktu, semoga mendewasakan”. it simply means that time is crucial for change. nothing can ever be done overnight- changes especially. it takes time for us to outgrow our old selves and improve. hence, along with hope, patience shld tag along. with a pinch of hope and patience, we can definitely make our second chance worth it. 

Ps: despite me telling you to do what makes you feel better, ALWAYS seek advice from the ones that you trust. they see things objectively and most importantly, they want the things that are best for you. you can give a lot of chances to a person, but remember that if it exhausts you, stop. if you feel like it's not right, stop. if your hunch says otherwise, stop. learn to stop when it's time to. keep in mind that relationships/friendships shouldn't be exhausting. get a good support system, and you're good to go 💙